28 February 2005

I stole this....

What is your name? e.
What is your Starsign? Capricorn
Your favourite colour? Red
List your 3 favourite songs: Depends on the day.
List your 3 favourite films: See above.
Do you dream in colour or black and white? Bright, blaring painful color. Ow. No wonder I can be such an insomniac…. Granted, upon waking I’m greeted by a bright red room, so. Hm. Maybe I’m not crazy……
What did you dream last night? Something very disturbing that woke me up at 3 a.m. and had my heart racing. Although it was likely the fact that I had the heater turned up so high even my stuffed animals were sweating.
Who is your favourite male actor? Mmm. British. Tall. Charming. Veeery charming…at least on screen and who gives a fuck if it’s not real… I pay money for something that’s not real. Duh. Yes, I know from experience that in real life the charm turns to annoyance when they can’t seem to get beyond the twittering and flabbergasted blushing. Ugh.
Who is your favourite female actress? I don’t really have any.

What is your favourite 'Take Away' food? Oh. Indian. Yummy….but, then again, there’s nothing that can’t be solved with pizza, fries or a good Philly soft pretzel!
Bath or Shower? Oy. Shower. HATE baths. Remind me of when I used to get stuck in the cold bath when I was little and had a fever. Eurgh.
Salted popcorn or sweet? Salted.
What is your natural eye colour? Green.
What is your natural hair colour? Blonde.
When was the last time you cried? I bought an onion the other day. Does that count? Otherwise I’d have to say the first credit card statement post-holidays.
Which is your favourite flavour of crisps? Oooh. Sea salt and vinegar rawks, although plain old salty crunchy badness is goooood.
Name your favourite perfume/aftershave: J’Adore.
What was the last thing you watched on television? I just dragged my lazy ass from in front of Seven Years in Tibet.
What was the last book you read? Baker Towers
What is your biggest fear? Regret.
List your 3 favourite websites: NYTimes.com, Salon.com, HomeStarRunner.com
What is your lucky number? 13
Opera or Pantomime? Ow, god, neither.
Do you believe in fate? Completely, and it pisses me off.
Do you believe in reincarnation? Absolutely – that’s why cats and small dogs love me, I was probably once their mother … or a nice, red fire hydrant.
Who was the last person you kissed? Heh … I don’t kiss and tell.
What was the last thing you ate? Those bloody addictive café twists, the choco chip kind you get at Trader Joe’s. “only 60 calories. Blah blah blah.” Yeah…. Erm, times the whole box!
Do you like Marmite? Oh god no!!!
What magazine/newspaper do you regularly read? Many many many. Hordes. Gaggles. I get them e-mailed to me. I get them mailed to me. In a few years they’ll probably be sent to me via a chip in my neck. It’s obscene. I need to think less…
Would you rather be too hot or too cold? Too cold. Sweaters, socks and nekkid men can always solve that problem!
What do you think are your best and worst qualities? Best=Mildly entertaining, hopeful to the point of being stupid, a closet romantic, smart, can help you move furniture (or bodies…. I’m an all-around kind of chickie), completely and totally honest. Bad=Can be hyper and talk too much, short tempered at times, jump into things too fast sometimes, or not fast enough at others, easily annoyed by stupid people, completely and totally honest.
Who was your first love? First=true totally incompatible just-walk-away better luck next time love I met when I was 18 and said goodbye to for the last time two years ago...
When was the last time you blushed? Oh, I was probably buying underwear or tampons or something.
Roughly how many hours a week do you spend on the internet? 60-80, but that’s just when I’m on a computer and the internet is on… actively, about 8-10
Who is your best friend? Vulcanlouieluau
What was the last website you visited? http://mags25.blogspot.com/, where I cribbed this questionnaire!
Score your personality from 1-10, 10 being the highest: Today it’s about a six…. Yesterday it was more like nine. Some days are better than others, but I’m usually up for a raucous good time!

24 February 2005

LiveStrong is weak

'kay, so, my LiveStrong bracelet, which I have been wearing every day for sooooooo many months broke today. It is weak, and it broke.

Now I ask myself, "Self, what does this mean?"

And I ask myself because just yesterday I was speaking with Mark about how I do not know how long I should keep it on, or even contemplate taking it off.

Did it self-destruct over my uncertainty? Did I cause it to question it's very reason for existence? Or, is it simply a chintzy piece of plastic made by some undernourished, hapless child laborer in China that wasn't meant to last more than these eight or nine months???

This is shall continue to contemplate as I go ball myself up in flannel on the couch as I watch the snow fall outside...

to be continued....

or not...

21 February 2005

Hunter S. Thompson, 1939-2005

I feel like i just lost a family member:

Hunter S. Thompson, the author who pioneered "gonzo" journalism and became an anti-establishment icon with his 1972 book "Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas," fatally shot himself at his home outside Aspen, Colorado, Sunday night, police said. He was 67.

In a statement released to the Aspen Daily News, Thompson's son, Juan, confirmed that the writer had taken his own life."On February 20, Dr. Hunter S. Thompson took his life with a gunshot to the head at his fortified compound in Woody Creek, Colorado.

"Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas" — Thompson's most famous work — detailed the drug-and-alcohol-fueled journey his alter-ego (Raoul Duke) and a Samoan attorney undertook while in Las Vegas to cover a motorcycle race. The book's biting wit and stream-of-consciousness ramblings — which Thompson would later term "gonzo journalism," because it was deliberately slanted — made him a counter-culture celebrity in the '70s, and his style was introduced to another generation of fans in 1998, when "Fear and Loathing" hit the big screen, starring Johnny Depp as Duke. (Bill Murray had tackled Thompson's life and work 18 years earlier in 1980's "Where the Buffalo Roam," based on a collection of the author's work.)

Thompson's other works include "Fear and Loathing: On the Campaign Trail '72," a collection of articles he'd written for Rolling Stone magazine while covering Richard Nixon's re-election campaign in 1972; and "Hell's Angels," his book chronicling the year he spent with the notorious California motorcycle gang.

17 February 2005

This is a super cool Belgian restaurant in London -- Belgo. Waiters wear these hot little monk-esque outfits, and there's a big Eddy Mercx poster above, at the bar. Posted by Hello

The hills of Lockerbie. Posted by Hello

Tundergarth Mains. Posted by Hello

Sweep! Sweep! (The hospital booties are to simulate the "slippery" foot, so you can better slide.... or fall!) Posted by Hello

They do it much better. Posted by Hello

But, go to another culture, learn something cultural, right? Like curling! (The windows above are the pub!) Posted by Hello

I can't imagine living in something like this
when it was still intact. The details blow you
away -- If I were rich I'd take something
like this (structurally sound one, of course)
and fix it up... sooo cool. and keep dogs, and
make them sleep by the fire! he he! Posted by Hello

Unfortunately, many decided the solution
was to take off the roofs. Thus, the end
result for many old estates is ruin. Posted by Hello

There's so much history there. Years ago the government taxed homeowners based on the number of roofs. Posted by Hello

Voila! Even the leaves are sugar. Posted by Hello

Making this stuff is no joke... nor is it easy.  Posted by Hello

We were there for the stories, which we found in abundance. I made these flowers out of a dough made of sugar, taught by these ladies in what's called the Sugar Craft Guild. When I get married I'll order a sugar craft cake from Scotland, despite the fact that they're hundreds of dollars! Posted by Hello

Buddha. Posted by Hello

The first Buddhist monastery in the U.K., in western Europe, is outside Lockerbie -- Samye Ling. It's home to monks and nuns, but also those from the community who want, or need, to remove themselves into its solitude. Posted by Hello

So spring gets me thinking, especially March's impending warmth. Last time I was in school I spent break in Lockerbie, Scotland, working on a book. This is the town hall -- the stained glass window features the flag for each country that lost a victim in the Pan Am 103 bombing in Dec. 1988. Posted by Hello

15 February 2005

I don’t like working. I really don’t. I dunno, maybe I got it wrong, this go to school and get the education and get a job and, of course, be completely fulfilled.

Two problems with that equation: First, it takes much more to be fulfilled than work, and those who think that it’s the be-all-end-all frighten me. I work for them—I don’t want to be them.

But, then again, and this is No. 2, were I doing something I truly loved I might be, nay, would be more than willing to keep at it until my fingers were bloody stumps.

And that’s where I may have gone wrong.

Bad planning, that’s all. Much in my life has been a lack of, or lack of decent, planning. And for the most part I’m fine with that, I follow my path, a combination of dumb luck and laser-like precision in regard to the goals I set, when I set them, but quite honestly, had I been better at the planning/goal thing from the get-go, I’d be somewhere else entirely, working my fingers to bloody stumps in a cold, damp studio making little money but, at the end of the day (or night, as tended to be the case), eyes bloodshot and mouth slack, it’d be worth it.

But maybe I’m at a crossroads. Perhaps. Before the holidays I met my roommate at UArts, wandered with her to her studio space, wandered around, and got so sad: Different school, same smells, sounds, feel. It took me eight years to get my bachelor’s degree, partly because I did it myself and sometimes money/ambition was hard to find, and partly because I simply did not want to leave.

Unfortunately, in this country you don’t get anything for free, and the student loan trolls are always breathing down my neck. Thus, Plan B., go with something else I love to do and seem marginally good at: writing. Only, journalism is no longer journalism, it’s clock punching and advertorials, and it pays complete and utter shit. So, here I am, working at a job that pays the bills, ain’t so bad—the people are cool, the cause it good, the end result is well worth the effort—and I’m still thinking, at the end of the day (when it eventually comes—ugh!) that it’s Just. Not. Right.

So where do I go from here? Who the hell knows. Nowhere if I don’t want to, but that’s never been my style. I just wish there was an easy way, a flash of lightning and the answers are clear, the direction obvious, fate steps in and tells me the way. Or, maybe that’s what it’s been doing all along. Fate. Karma. Destiny. I’m big on them all. I believe there are people who come into our lives for a reason, leave for a reason, and while I know there's not just one person for all of us, there are those we meet who inspire us to be more than we are, who just appear and you wonder how the hell you got by without them before.

Maybe I’m just being impatient.

And intensely introspective, with a glass of wine, of course! (I am a writer after all. It’s one of the few perks—brooding over something alcoholic.) A combination of a conversation I had with one of my roommates this weekend and a book I’m reading about Pennsylvania coal miners has me in a funk. Maybe I’m just being picky, or spoiled, or unrealistic, but I feel as though I have a responsibility to follow my talents, due, for different reasons, to ancestors on both sides.

On one side you have the Pennsylvania coal miner and his wife, who worked in a sewing factory. Doing anything else was never an option, and survival was everything for my grandparents, whose own grandparents weren’t even born here. I watched them as they hid cash throughout the house and stock-piled canned goods, the behavioral remnants of the Depression. I watched them work, and, in the end, I watched them die--he from Black Lung, she from Leukemia. I ran the Dublin marathon with her name around my wrist, and lit a candle in St. Patrick's for the woman who always wanted to, but never did, travel outside the U.S.

On the other side you’ve got my grandfather, the artist who traded paintings for alcohol and lived in a log cabin by a fjord, and his son, my dad, who also did his own thing, coming to the U.S. in his 20s to fly planes—something he had no idea how to do. These days I think he flies 747s, or something equally loud.

So, I feel I owe such a tremendous debt to so many people for making it possible for me to have options, and to know that, if you have a goal, you just have to work for it until it happens.

I have such a hard time living in the here and now sometimes, like now, thanks to a nagging at the back of my brain: “More. There’s more.” I’m just not sure what it is or how to get there. Perhaps I simply need to get some sleep ...

09 February 2005

springspringspringspring!!! Posted by Hello

I changed the settings

So, I've changed the settings and now anyone can leave comments.

Gawd that was annoying, wasn't it?!!?!

08 February 2005


So I did something I’ve never done before today: I took a spinning class.

‘kay, so, I’m all about the street, the sights, sounds, dodging cars, people and pets. You name it, I love it. But, after a bad day I decided I needed to kick it up a notch. And oh shit did I ever. It’s so surreal, all these stationery bikes in a dark room with dance music blaring. And, for the first half it was me gasping, sucking air like a fish flailing on the floor, pedaling like a granma, feeling like Ullrich getting the smackdown on the Alps in ’01.

Thankfully, riding a stationery bike is just like, well, riding a bike, and these gobs of muscles remembered what the fuck they’re supposed to be doing, and I think, had I been moving, I might have been able to pass that granma….provided she was using a walker…and was blind.

Whoo. How many more weeks before I get to ride for real?!!?

Of course, the month of February must be done away with first. Good thing it’s moving at a steady clip, and I swear to god if I see one snow flake I’m out there with my blowdryer!

The thing I hate most about this time of year is not the manic weather, but rather Valentine’s Day, and not for the reason one might think. Oh sure, yeah, “Valentine’s Day makes single people feel so baaad! Wah wah waaaah!” Naw, with or sans boy I still hate it, goddamned Hallmark-induced-mindless-spending-and-no-sex-for-you-should-you-forget-to-spend-an-inordinate-amount-of-money-on-red-shiny-crap-day!

You can spend all the money in the world on roses, but if your socks are lying around on the floor for weeks at a time, growing their own ecosystem and scaring even the roaches, it’s pointless.

I guess I’m old and jaded. Fine. I’d rather be old and jaded than old and hanging with someone I want to see on the side of a milk carton on a regular basis!

But, I’m not the only one like me. It’s an epidemic, and I for one would like to see some changes, goddamn it. I mean, we can stay single forever, we can make our own money, change the oil in the car and fix the plumbing, but it gets boring after a while.

Thus, I have deduced a Spinsterella manifesto for me’n’my girls: I am hereby placing a moratorium on 20-30-something-year-old boring lifeless chicken-shit pussy men. To date we chickies they must:

  1. Have the ability to converse. Period.
  2. They don’t have to be highly educated or have a lot of exotic experiences, but for chrissakes don’t hold our lives against us. We’re not better, just more in debt, and can probably win at Trivial Pursuit.
  3. Know what you want, and do something about it. As Grandma used to say, “Piss or get off the pot.” You want to date us, then date us, you’re not sure, then don’t. No vacillation, no uncertainty, yes or no, and no going back and forth between us and your baby mama, or we’re going to gang up on you and stab you in the neck with chopsticks.
  4. If you want to date us, then you kinda’ have to let us know. Sure, we can locate misplaced items with the weird homing device hidden somewhere in our uterus’ (uterii? And, yeah, it’s a weird thing…..I think it’s right next to the gaydar button…) but we’re not psychic. Well, except for that chick on that TV show…
  5. This is just for me, but you have to know how to use the word peloton in a sentence…
  6. And this is the hardest part, and I’ll be the one to admit it, and possibly risk losing my girl club card, but no matter how much dough we rake in, or how well we can hammer a nail, there’s something to be said for being “wooed.” I know, old fashioned and such, but there’s a reason chick flicks are all about that shit. I for one would gladly spend the rest of my life with someone who knocks my socks off. Well, not literally. That’s crossing a line, and see No. 3 for the resulting punishment.

But, the best part, is that in return for all this you’ll get a damn cool babe who’ll knock your socks off in return… and maybe even pick them up off the floor for you every once in a while…with chopsticks, of course!

07 February 2005

E-A-G-L-E-S....oh, forget it....

So it's over. I made an entire season of football (without having to stand around in a short little skirt waving pom-poms like a moron). Phew! Made it... No more reading my newspaper while sitting on a cold cememt stoop...

Although, I think it's kind of sad they're not still having a parade for the players. I mean, they got Philly to the Super Bowl for the first time in, what, 15 billion years? They deserve some kudos. Granted, there are probably plenty of hardcore fans out there thinking tying them to a stake covered in sugar and fire ants is more fitting.

I dunno. Of course, I'm also the person spending inordinate amounts of cash on electronic devices in an attempt to sucessfully cohabitate with a mouse... a rodent... so as not to make him homeless in the dead of winter. A RODENT.

Survival of the fittest obviously takes a vacation at the Netherhouse.

How the hell did I get roped into this? And why does Pat look constipated? Should I be standing that close?!!?! Posted by Hello

The end.  Posted by Hello

Waiting.... Posted by Hello

Waiting.... Posted by Hello

Waiting. Patiently. Sunday morning....McMenamin's.... Posted by Hello

We've been doing this for months.  Posted by Hello

Jon's so badass. Posted by Hello

E-A-G-L-E-S-EAGLES!!! (before the pain, obviously...) Posted by Hello

Yep, they're from New Jersey, folks.... betcha' you'd never guess! Posted by Hello